1 June 2009

Pentecost!


so yesterday was Pentecost and it went well. i was totally blessed and managed to give my talk which was a blessing from the holy spirit because i would not have been able to do it without Him!. tash came and gave the second half of the talk, i talked about what spiritual gifts were in the catholic churches context and i had a blast! and then of course there was food after, always a highlight...

yesterday was also the first day for the full schola cantorum to sing as well and i say it wen well.. not super to the discerning ear but grand non the less... i love chant and what can i say the love of Latin is growing.. now to juggle scholar and catechism classes in between learning Veni Sancte Spritus...

so basically yesterday was another confirmation of what i've been trying to get a grip on for a while now... Discerning God's will for my life and my unique purpose... over time though i have begun to worry about it less and just letting go. I have been focusing more on trying to allow God to use me as He wills in my current situation...and i think i'm somewhat succeeding, my problem is i am one of those dramatic people who like stuff to be larger than life, so i want to be given a larger than life purpose too... but i'm leaving that more and focusing moe on living the ordinary in a holy way...

to discerning god's will though i believe i need a spiritual director and so i will proactively seek one :D and another thing tash said struck me to wake up everyday and say Come Holy Spirit fill my life today; an OK what's next God approach me thinks :D to let the Holy spirit fan to flam my gift, and to use it for the greater glory of God and the ministry of the church... and how scary that can be, and yet i'm not scared i'm just not there yet... so i'm thinking i need to be there before my purpose is revealed, yet how do i get there.... mmm hence the need of a spiritual director.. i have a someone in mind... whom i'm a bit apprehensive to approach... why is life so fraught with useless worries...


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